I can’t seem to fall asleep before 4am these days. I get really guilty about not being at the studio (oh yeah I am renting a studio with a bunch of designers above American Apparel on Oxford St now forgot to mention).

I got home an hour ago and tried watching the Stargate movie with James Spader so it could put me to sleep but I just got frustrated at the tactical carelessness of the movie’s military. Then I tried watching Before Sunrise but I hate Ethan Hawke (except in Gattaca). I need to wake up early to get back to the studio but I don’t think that’ll happen because I am still wide awake.

I skipped Christmas today so I could do some more drawings. I fear that once the work for this show is over I will have absolutely nothing to do and my life will be empty, I can’t win in either case – either get exhausted from drawing or feel guilty from not drawing. Arghhhh!!! Same old shit.